If I Could Travel in Time

What, oh what would I say to me
If I traveled back a year or three
Would I wonder why I was sad
Would I still talk about what I had

Who knows the path that lies ahead
They told me the truth but they never said
That regret is a poison mixed with envy
Is contentment a myth or only pity

Would I ask myself to be stronger
Would I say just hold on a little longer
Can you find an answer without asking a question
Can you take a stance without choosing a position

Your plan has traces of the nefarious
Your joy is mine, but I'm still jealous
Am I here or still clinging to a shadow
My outlook was and is truly harrowed

So maybe I would listen, learn, then try to speak
About how the mountain's most beautiful at its peak
But I made it this far so I will carry on
I hummed a tune, now I sing the song

Ancient forces have long debated with rage
That wisdom doesn't always come from a sage
But hindsight has a way of creating
Nothing more than a sense of longing

I wish I could have, I wish I didn't
Those two thoughts I deem repellent
For down that road you only find pain
When you wish you could do it again

So live in the moment and please don't hope
To undo your actions, instead why not cope
Say you're sorry and then move forward
No one is going to call you an unjust coward

So I guess I would say you are going to make mistakes
But what you give is more important than what you take
No one can be perfect in any way, shape or form
But you can try to be different from the norm

So hold on tight the best is coming soon
Not everyone is born with a silver spoon
But be the best that you could hope to be
And stop making yourself the enemy

You know

You know the sun only shines so bright
Because she wanted to prove that you were right
The glowing beams spread across your face
As you turn your back and pray for grace

Your heart simply beats an anguished rhythm
Because you played and found yourself beaten
Your bones to this day remain unbroken
Because she cast a spell that was unspoken

The rain falls down in an expanding mess
Representing what she once possessed
And sometimes you being to wonder
If it was her voice that brought the thunder

Your lungs are fit to capture polluted air
She taunted you to an unspeakable dare
With every breath you took she observed
She was the fiber of every nerve

The wind howls like an unstoppable torment
Yet she was the hope that kept you buoyant
You feel it flowing rapidly on
And you know she is not truly gone

And on rolls the debacle you call a brain
She is the reason you aren't completely insane
Protecting the beauty of the subconscious thought
Yet she was the only thing you wish you forgot

Look up at  the stars, they sparkle tonight
But only because she made them fight
Where would you be without their guidance
Would you walk, leap, step or prance

Your skin is the covering that envelopes completely
Because she held you in her arms so gently
Covering the frame that was valued most
And now all that remains is a haunted ghost

Nothing is ever truly finished
Even the chord that's half-diminished
And so you're left alone in a world so twisted true
You know the sea is salty, because she cried for you.

Look at me

I see your eyes searing the insides of my brain
I see the tears about to fall like gloomy rain
Why do you hate me, I can only question
Did you not hear me, did you never learn your lesson

Where is folly but in the grasp of a dreamer
You despise me I know, but I am still a believer
That maybe your dislike is only just a trend
But you disparage my thoughts till the very end

You tell me you wish I was a better man
You tell me you never did what only I can
You tell me I am nothing more than a loser
You say I'm too weak to be a fighter

Thwarting my progression at every turn
Again, can you not hear me, do you ever learn
Malnourished purely from discontent
A sinner you are, now go and repent

Whenever you look at me, you never smile
You know everything about me, it's all in my file
Crazed with loathing everything that I am
You destroy my walls with your battering ram

Hostile to praise when it abounds
Clasping the ground without a sound
You say my words are really worthless and crass
As I realize that I gaze at a reflection, in the looking glass

Random short poems

Who am I

Who am I, the oldest question in the book
Well if you want to know, why don't you take a look
Where are you is what some will chant
The air is fresh let me continue to rant

Loquacious in thought, but hesitant in speech
The answer comes from those who cannot teach
So they say dusk comes before dawn
The night is the refuge where the demons spawn

I answer your question with a retort
Surrender being only a last resort
I do not know who I am or who I will be
What I crave is only anonymity






This Is Me

My darling can't you see
That this is me
Far away from the corners
Head hanging just above the shoulders
Pretty it seems for just cause
Sordid are those without laws
Tried and true, there is relief
Falsified delusion, your real belief


I Am Sorry

 I see you standing next to oblivion
You see me but you stopped caring
The knife in your back was placed by me
Is it too late to say that I'm so sorry
It takes a genius to say you're right
But even the gods will stop to fight
For even they know the only real song
That it takes more than divinity to admit you're wrong

The Introspection of the Bard

Fear, the emotion imperceptible
Anger, the diet of the forsaken
Desire, the force inescapable
Joy, what's forgotten when all is taken

Pain is the culmination of these four
But I forgot hope, the blissful ally
The gentle spirit knocking on the door
The voice that implores you, give it a try

Peace is the nirvana we try to find
But where does it comes from, don't you ask me
A place no one can touch inside your mind
So simply try to perceive the beauty

For love is the treasure worth more than gold
So now going once, going twice...and sold

The Unending Search

You're looking for what doesn't exist in a place where nothing can be found

Your mangled tribulation has lowered you to the forlorn ground

You think about what you want when you don't want it to happen

You gave what was not yours and hoped it was forgotten

You're searching for that which doesn't have a name

Yet you feel pride while others would feel shame

You are the contradiction which invalidates its own nature

You are the unseen masquerade, a grotesque creature.

Beauty is found in the very last quest

Radiance is you at your very best

Pursuant to the redundancy of your endless search

You're free like a bird, yet you only stay perched

You're following a leader, though you're walking backward

You're charismatic and charming, but still quite awkward

Take a look at the mess and you see only beauty

Fighting for victory, but settling for a treaty

Harrowed and haunted, reticence is your call

Lofty and vaunted, yet you are only trying to stall

Who knows the desires burning inside

Watching with glee as you start to writhe

You look in the mirror at the darkest reflection

And then start to walk in the wrong direction

Who's to say who's right or just ridiculous

Yet dare I say you're far too presumptuous

While others are looking for the Holy Grail

You are obsessed with your own white whale

There are memories which you like to reminisce

Yet all of them have no objective purpose

Precious detail is what you like to hoard

Excitement is that which makes you feel bored

You collect what has no value and keep it in your store

But worst of all, you don't even know what you're looking for